I like it, but I don't.
I want it, but I don't.
I'm fine, but I'm not.

None of this matters, but it does.

-A.

"I don't know if you've ever felt like that.
That you want to sleep for a thousand years.
Or just not exist.
Or just not be aware that you exist.
Or something like that.
I think wanting that is very morbid,
but I want it when I get like this.
That's why I'm trying not to think.
I just want it to all stop spinning."

- The Perks of Being a WallFlower, Stephen Chbosky

-A.